Sometimes I get found out

I am learning a lot from this commitment to a weekly practice of seeing the world aesthetically. I’m noticing how I get bored, lazy, have the thought ‘maybe not this week’. And how accomplished I feel when I do show up, even if it’s minimal thought and effort.

I’m also noticing this as a practice of being in place. Noticing the fear I feel of interacting in a non-conforming way in the environments around me: That people will think I’m strange (likely, yes), judge me (what does it matter, they don’t know me), and that I should hurry and not take up too much time or space.

These are some of the little things that I gently confront each week as I show up and wonder about how to be.

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